AHAHHAHAH. I am so pissed off. My wannabe stalking is not working!!!! Like I just thought while I was going through his shit: I just want to understand, I swear. Nothing more. Its not stalking because I just want to undestand. 
SO fuck. I can't even access his damn myspace! I tried to search for him here. Its not that easy. I tried to find him on other blog sites. Also not working out for me. 
I should just go take a nap. 
Or call him. 

I have nothing to say

I just want to understand.

THis is making me so soosososoososo so angry. I googled. I asked jeeves. I yahood. I gave up. I did find someones xanga that mentioned him. But it also mentioned about 50 other kids from their same high school. 
Is this completely psycho?
No. yes. no. kind of.
I just want to understand!!!
fuck.

Did I mention I am completely bored with my life?
That I hate everything I do. 
That I am sick of the Denver police and Denver legal system AND the Denver jails?
That I am considering moving to mexico for 7 years until this is over?
Except that I already plead guilty and would be a felon if I dont complete probation.
Maybe I'll go to rehab just so I can easily kill 5 monthes. 
It could be like mexico...

It was nice to be distracted for a while.