In no particular order:

1. Go parachuting
2. See the Great Wall of China
3. Visit Stonehenge
4. Speak fluent spanish
5. Own a personal library
6. Truly fall in love again
7. Live to at least 75
8. Write a book
9. Be a political scientist
10. Be a religious scholar
11. Make a difference
12. Visit Russia
13. Visit Japan
14. Live in New York
15. LIve in L.A.
16. Go to South America
17. See the North and South poles
18. Take a cruise
19. Be an astronomer
20. Study law
21. Learn to be a gourmet Chef
22. Have healthy children
23. Go to Italy
24. Visit Berlin
25. Shop at the Mall of America
26. Value independence
27. Graduate college
28. Create a beautiful painting 
29. Volunteer voluntarily
30. Live respectably 

 i got the internet in my home now. never shall i be bored as long as i have the internet. yay.

HSAHAHHAHA.  OMFG, I dont even know what to say because really there is not much to say other than omfg. I need a different life. I wish I had lots of money and free time so I could fuck off and visit 80 different countries and make a film about it. One day, I too shall be old. Not so soon. I just want to go to bed. I wish I had the internet at my house. Someday soon. I could probably just take my laptop and find a wireless network to connect to if I really cared. But I dont. I dont really care about anything. At least that I would like to admit to. I have to catch a bus. Now? Or maybe in 30 minutes. I just want to go home and sleep. Thats the thing that sucks about me and drinking. No sleep unless I black and pass out. Typically. I really need to take a shower. I feel like a dirty skeezer.

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 ahshdh. this fucking pisses me off that I cant do this anymore. (post test results correctly)

AHHASHdfh.  AnD I want to put up a different picture because I look simply jackass in the pic I have now. WHY? Oh, WHY. 
Please let me escape!
When will I be coming home?

wow. long time no write.
 whats new. 
nothing. 
time flies.
so do birds. 
and ducks.
so halloween. 
yeah next week. 
what the fuck am I going to do? suha

Its official. It now or never. I dont want to go. I dont I dont. 
I dont have a choice.
So I'm making it my choice.
I just yacked.
Thats how nervous I am.
Nebraska?
Who does that.
Me apparently. 
I hate my life.
I had so many plans that just arent working.
GOD why cant I just go back to the days of Screeching Weasel and NOFX.
It was best then.  Everything. Especially including myself.
Now I represent death and destruction and its not cool anymore.
glorificus god I am going to miss all my friends.

THis is making me so soosososoososo so angry. I googled. I asked jeeves. I yahood. I gave up. I did find someones xanga that mentioned him. But it also mentioned about 50 other kids from their same high school. 
Is this completely psycho?
No. yes. no. kind of.
I just want to understand!!!
fuck.

Did I mention I am completely bored with my life?
That I hate everything I do. 
That I am sick of the Denver police and Denver legal system AND the Denver jails?
That I am considering moving to mexico for 7 years until this is over?
Except that I already plead guilty and would be a felon if I dont complete probation.
Maybe I'll go to rehab just so I can easily kill 5 monthes. 
It could be like mexico...

It was nice to be distracted for a while. 

AHAHHAHAH. I am so pissed off. My wannabe stalking is not working!!!! Like I just thought while I was going through his shit: I just want to understand, I swear. Nothing more. Its not stalking because I just want to undestand. 
SO fuck. I can't even access his damn myspace! I tried to search for him here. Its not that easy. I tried to find him on other blog sites. Also not working out for me. 
I should just go take a nap. 
Or call him. 

I have nothing to say

I just want to understand.

i'm a jack ass.  
so i took some xanax last night. 
and it probably came out in my urine today. 
the urine that i gave to a corporation thats going to test it. 
and then send the results to my probation officer.
who will tell the judge next wednesday. 
who will send me away to jail.
unless between now and then i get a prescription.
which i might be able to pull off.
wish me luck.

-good luck self.